I am losing who I am?

For the past ten years my life has steadily been going down hill at the moment I am very much alone, my family and I are not close and we fight the whole time. I feel my loneliness is steadily killing me. I have no friends no one to talk too, this is the last option for me maybe some of you will find me a joke or pity me please don't I have been look down upon my whole life and my rage and anger are the only emotions I have left to give. I have been scorned by women because of how I look I have never had a date or girlfriend and it is not from a lack of trying I have tried and failed so many times that I have just given up. I feel empty the whole time. People don't see me Why should I live in a world where I am a second class person with no prospects of a future. I am stuck and don't know where to go anymore. Think what you may of me I am a good person that is saying stop standing me and let me get up and find some form of happiness.