Tuesday, August 2, 2011

How can I make my father proud of me?

I was always a failure in my fathers eyes. I never got straight A's in school ,wasn't popular and wasn't good at sports. When high school ended, I didn't get into a prestigious college and now go to state one. My younger sister on the other hand is gets good grades, great at sports and wins awards constantly. This gap is something my father talks about constantly and how I'm a shame to the family because I have nothing to be proud of. I feel so guilty and ashamed because he gave up alot of his career promotions when I was younger to try to get me to study and work harder. Now my sister is about to go to a top ranked school and he can't stop talking about how proud he is of her to my family and friends. Then he looks at me and just gives me such angry looks and comments like why couldnt you be like her or youre such a piece of ****. I know I deserve such scorn but what are realistic ways I can make my father proud of me in the near future? I'm about to be a junior in college and don't know what I can do. I understand alot of people must think its crazy I care this much but the fact I have never made him proud of me is something that has bugged me for a long time

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